Post-partum

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Society taught me to be silent
Be super woman
We earned this
Why do I feel like I need a tribe?
But the "shoulds" float around in my mind
I should do more
I shouldn't complain
I should be stronger
I shouldn't rest

I feel weak
Physically
But mostly mentally.
About to crack and break
On the brink of giving up

Society told me that I should take it all on
So I pile on the guilt
The emotional burden
The physical trauma
The deep disconnection between my past and present self.

Six weeks is all it takes
To heal the gaping bloody wound inside
But why aren't we looking at
Measuring!
the invisible
Intangible
Inconceivable
And so abrupt transition into that which we call motherhood?

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